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By the time you are reading this it won’t be today, because I’m not gonna tell you “today”  what has happened… maybe in a week from today, maybe more… something like that.

But today June 29th I woke up this morning and took a pregnancy test, it is 2 days before I am supposed to start my cycle.  I have been experiencing some little signs of possible pregnancy and so I wanted to know.  Last night TJ and I had a fight, we don’t fight too often, but I hate it when we do, it’s awful!  Of corse the Devil was trying to steel our joy!

TJ went fishing this morning, but when he got home I made french toast.  I cut a piece of toast in the shape of a plus sign and started cooking it, he started to walk into the kitchen and I threw my hand up and said NO… GET OUT!!  I actually hit his face with my stiff arm (accident)  He looked at me wide eyed trying to understand what just happened and sat back down, I said “don’t try to make sense of me right now, just sit down!”  It finished cooking seconds later, and I threw the toast on his place… he stared at it for a minute.  Ava said “that’s a cross… why did mommy make you a cross?” And he said “Well if you look at it you can also see that it could be a plus sign” Ava: “oh”…  he came in the kitchen, I put my arms around his neck as he picked me up and hugged me for a minute, and he gave me a short but passionate kiss.  He said “God is good”

As I sat down to breakfast, I felt fear in my heart and thought “what if this doesn’t work?”  And then TJ told the girls that I was pregnant, Ava’s face lit up with excitement and Penny looked and said “Noooo… your not pregnant!”  Ava couldn’t stop talking about it for the next 15 minutes.  We got to tell Ava how God had been clear with us, and how he confirmed that He’s the one who healed my body, and that’s why we can be confident and truly excited about this baby, a true gift.  1 Peter 5:10 “And the God of grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will Himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.”  (we have the verse written on our chalk board)

I looked at TJ and said I am gonna have to be in God’s word EVERY SINGLE DAY!!  I am going to have to cling to him, because where he is there is no confusion, and there is no fear!  The exciting thing is that he has already given us so much confidence in him, he as allowed us to be in a place of complete trust in him.  We have the freedom of living in what he has for us, trusting his plan… it is the best place to be!!

After breakfast we sat down on the couch to read the word and pray and thank God.  I read Psalm 29 (It’s the 29th of June)

1Ascribe to the Lord, you heavenly beings,

ascribe to the Lord glory and strength.

2Ascribe to the Lord the glory due his name;

worship the Lord in the splendor of his holiness.

3The voice of the Lord is over the waters;

the God of glory thunders,

the Lord thunders over the mighty waters.

4The voice of the Lord is powerful;

the voice of the Lord is majestic.

5The voice of the Lord breaks the cedars;

the Lord breaks in pieces the cedars of Lebanon.

6He makes Lebanon leap like a calf,

Sirion like a young wild ox.

7The voice of the Lord strikes

with flashes of lightning.

8The voice of the Lord shakes the desert;

the Lord shakes the Desert of Kadesh.

9The voice of the Lord twists the oaks

and strips the forests bare.

And in his temple all cry, “Glory!”

10The Lord sits enthroned over the flood;

the Lord is enthroned as King forever.

11The Lord gives strength to his people;

the Lord blesses his people with peace.

It’s the voice of the Lord that spoke to us and gave us a sign, and look at who God is here, look how powerful he is.  This was the perfect word for me this morning.  As I sat in a bit of fear, this is what I needed to hear.  My God is so big, yet so gentle, He compares to no one and yet He is so intimately involved in my life.  I don’t want to walk another day without seeking him, without being encouraged by who he is.  I don’t have to live in fear because God is on the throne, vs 11”The Lord gives strength to his people;  the Lord blesses his people with peace.

I sat down to find out the due date of this baby on baby center, I typed the date of the first day of my last period and waited for it to calculate… you know what the due date is?   Its the same exact day that Nola was due:  March 7th… I don’t even know what to say about that!

So if you are a prayer warrior of ours (or just want to pray 😉  Pray that we will find strength in the Lord, because he is the one who holds it, and pray that we will continually find peace in him as he is the one who offers it.